This week is, in many ways, overwhelmingly busy. But I just can't stop smiling.
I know I'm using less and less detail as the days go on. I wish I had more time to document my final week at SB but, 1) I barely have time as it is with the lack of volunteers here this week and 2) I feel like it's better to be truly present in every moment that I have with the students.
TWO DAYS AGO: Sunday
My trip to Hosur with Kathya seems like it was ages ago. We woke up at around 8:30 to head to a temple in Hosur where we spent about a half an hour exploring. One of my favorite parts of traveling in India is taking part in traditions right along with the people who practice them on a regular basis. This experience was no different. After the temple, we headed to the bazaar market where we did some shopping. I got a new kurta (an India tunic-like garment that you wear with leggings) and a nice dark green kurta dress with purple, red, and gold accents for my last day at SB. We had lunch at a restaurant called Janani, one of my favorite food experiences from last year's trip, and had an incredible meal. You forget how rich Indian food is when you're eating the most simple, basic dishes on a daily basis. At Shanti Bhavan, almost everything is a spicy vegetable broth over rice with maybe a side of "ladyfingers" (okra) or pickled veggies and chapathi, an Indian flat tortilla. Anyway, it was delicious and a nice change from the sometimes bland, though very much appreciated, SB food. We went to the supermarket and stopped at the cash machine before returning home.
That night, Dr. George was giving a special discussion, apart from his usual Thursday night talks, just for the 10th-12th graders. The topic was DG's interpretations of Reverence for Life by Albert Schweitzer, reinterpreted by several graduates of SB. I watched as the former SB students worked their way through the dense material, explaining and providing examples to the current SB students. DG's profound and often aphorism-filled speeches have altered my way of thinking drastically on several different occasions. I sit there taking notes, whether mental or physical, questioning my every action, and what's weirder, questioning my every thought. Dr. George makes me question the inner workings of my very own mind... and I love it. So, I thought I'd share a few points I wrote down from this discussion:
1)The will to live + sensitivity to the plight of others = REVERENCE FOR LIFE
2) If you cannot give when you do not have, you will never give when you do.
3) Compassion without action is a dead matter.
- DG used an example like this: A man walks down the street and sees absolute, abject poverty. He feels compassion and sympathy for these people in this predicament, whether begging, homeless, sick, or hungry. He looks at them with sorrow in his eyes as he passes through their neighborhood, or lack there of. And then he returns home to his comfortable home and feels better about himself. After all, he did a good deed today! He felt compassion towards those in need.
- DG is absolutely right, not that this surprises me. Compassion is an instantaneous pick-me-up. We feel better about ourselves once we have "felt" for someone else. But... what are we going to do to put that compassion into action? Build a school for children of India's lowest caste to provide them with a world class education that will eventually allow them to break the cycle of poverty? Maybe not. Maybe this is too much for some of us. Or most of us. We're not all Dr. Abraham George. But, we just have to take a step back and really think about it. Because, it's true! What is compassion without action?
YESTERDAY: Monday
Remember when I said any period labeled "free" in my original schedule would be filled by a class this week? I was right! My schedule now includes 2 classes of Geography 7, 2 of Grammar 8, and 3 of English Literature 8, as well as some sporadic additional Drama 3, where I've started teaching them to sing Brand New You from 13 The Musical.
I don't have a ton to say about yesterday. I spent nearly all day lesson planning, grading, and teaching, and especially, preparing for my crazy busy Tuesday. But, as dancing with the upper grade girls always is, this was definitely a highlight:
TODAY: Tuesday
Without a doubt my busiest day this week, I taught 7/8 class periods today. I'm exhausted, but also feeling incredibly fulfilled. My day started with 6:30 AM prep followed by Civics 7, where we went over the Indian State Government and the different types of jurisdiction for their August monthly test on Thursday. In History 9, we reviewed for their Civics monthly test, because we had reviewed History the day before, working on fundamental rights and freedoms. I ran to History 10, once I had finished with the 9th grade, to review the Moderates, focusing on Dadabhai Naoroji and his contributions. Then came tea time and assembly, a pleasant and refreshing break amidst a truly chaotic morning. After assembly, I taught Geography 7, covering the Rock Cycle and beginning to talk about different types of soil, as well as Civics 8, where I gave them their exam on the UN. [A little side note: I just finished grading those tests and am super proud of their grades!] After Civics 8 was lunch, followed by my only free period of the day, followed by Grammar 8 and Drama 5.
I've just returned from reading stories to the 3rd graders, which will forever be my favorite part of the day. Tonight I got to put the 1st graders to bed as well, as they live in the same dorm as the 3rd graders. I snapped this picture:
I promise you it wasn't staged. This is 100% honest. Though I must admit that I now have about 20 pictures like this of all the first graders because if you take a picture of one child saying their prayers before bedtime, every other child will want a similar picture. And I simply can't say no to these little faces.
Finally, I just have to share this special moment with you all:
I felt like a proud mother today when my 8th graders showed me that they had discovered a way to recycle their chalk by collecting chalk shavings, adding water, and waiting for it to harden into a large, blob-shaped piece of chalk. It writes pretty roughly and it isn't the best option in the world, but considering the chalk shortage SB seems to be consistently experiencing, this was incredibly resourceful of them! I was so overwhelmed with happiness that I got a lump in my throat and nearly started crying. I'm sure they thought I was a fool, but I just couldn't control myself in that moment.
These kids are beyond amazing and I'm having a hard time imagining my life without their innate brilliance inspiring me every moment of every day. Luckily, I'll have these blogs to look back on and when I need a bit of inspiration, I'll just think of the recycled chalk blobs and I'm sure the lump of pride in my throat will be restored.
I know I'm using less and less detail as the days go on. I wish I had more time to document my final week at SB but, 1) I barely have time as it is with the lack of volunteers here this week and 2) I feel like it's better to be truly present in every moment that I have with the students.
TWO DAYS AGO: Sunday
My trip to Hosur with Kathya seems like it was ages ago. We woke up at around 8:30 to head to a temple in Hosur where we spent about a half an hour exploring. One of my favorite parts of traveling in India is taking part in traditions right along with the people who practice them on a regular basis. This experience was no different. After the temple, we headed to the bazaar market where we did some shopping. I got a new kurta (an India tunic-like garment that you wear with leggings) and a nice dark green kurta dress with purple, red, and gold accents for my last day at SB. We had lunch at a restaurant called Janani, one of my favorite food experiences from last year's trip, and had an incredible meal. You forget how rich Indian food is when you're eating the most simple, basic dishes on a daily basis. At Shanti Bhavan, almost everything is a spicy vegetable broth over rice with maybe a side of "ladyfingers" (okra) or pickled veggies and chapathi, an Indian flat tortilla. Anyway, it was delicious and a nice change from the sometimes bland, though very much appreciated, SB food. We went to the supermarket and stopped at the cash machine before returning home.
That night, Dr. George was giving a special discussion, apart from his usual Thursday night talks, just for the 10th-12th graders. The topic was DG's interpretations of Reverence for Life by Albert Schweitzer, reinterpreted by several graduates of SB. I watched as the former SB students worked their way through the dense material, explaining and providing examples to the current SB students. DG's profound and often aphorism-filled speeches have altered my way of thinking drastically on several different occasions. I sit there taking notes, whether mental or physical, questioning my every action, and what's weirder, questioning my every thought. Dr. George makes me question the inner workings of my very own mind... and I love it. So, I thought I'd share a few points I wrote down from this discussion:
1)The will to live + sensitivity to the plight of others = REVERENCE FOR LIFE
2) If you cannot give when you do not have, you will never give when you do.
3) Compassion without action is a dead matter.
- DG used an example like this: A man walks down the street and sees absolute, abject poverty. He feels compassion and sympathy for these people in this predicament, whether begging, homeless, sick, or hungry. He looks at them with sorrow in his eyes as he passes through their neighborhood, or lack there of. And then he returns home to his comfortable home and feels better about himself. After all, he did a good deed today! He felt compassion towards those in need.
- DG is absolutely right, not that this surprises me. Compassion is an instantaneous pick-me-up. We feel better about ourselves once we have "felt" for someone else. But... what are we going to do to put that compassion into action? Build a school for children of India's lowest caste to provide them with a world class education that will eventually allow them to break the cycle of poverty? Maybe not. Maybe this is too much for some of us. Or most of us. We're not all Dr. Abraham George. But, we just have to take a step back and really think about it. Because, it's true! What is compassion without action?
YESTERDAY: Monday
Remember when I said any period labeled "free" in my original schedule would be filled by a class this week? I was right! My schedule now includes 2 classes of Geography 7, 2 of Grammar 8, and 3 of English Literature 8, as well as some sporadic additional Drama 3, where I've started teaching them to sing Brand New You from 13 The Musical.
I don't have a ton to say about yesterday. I spent nearly all day lesson planning, grading, and teaching, and especially, preparing for my crazy busy Tuesday. But, as dancing with the upper grade girls always is, this was definitely a highlight:
TODAY: Tuesday
Without a doubt my busiest day this week, I taught 7/8 class periods today. I'm exhausted, but also feeling incredibly fulfilled. My day started with 6:30 AM prep followed by Civics 7, where we went over the Indian State Government and the different types of jurisdiction for their August monthly test on Thursday. In History 9, we reviewed for their Civics monthly test, because we had reviewed History the day before, working on fundamental rights and freedoms. I ran to History 10, once I had finished with the 9th grade, to review the Moderates, focusing on Dadabhai Naoroji and his contributions. Then came tea time and assembly, a pleasant and refreshing break amidst a truly chaotic morning. After assembly, I taught Geography 7, covering the Rock Cycle and beginning to talk about different types of soil, as well as Civics 8, where I gave them their exam on the UN. [A little side note: I just finished grading those tests and am super proud of their grades!] After Civics 8 was lunch, followed by my only free period of the day, followed by Grammar 8 and Drama 5.
I've just returned from reading stories to the 3rd graders, which will forever be my favorite part of the day. Tonight I got to put the 1st graders to bed as well, as they live in the same dorm as the 3rd graders. I snapped this picture:
I promise you it wasn't staged. This is 100% honest. Though I must admit that I now have about 20 pictures like this of all the first graders because if you take a picture of one child saying their prayers before bedtime, every other child will want a similar picture. And I simply can't say no to these little faces.
Finally, I just have to share this special moment with you all:
I felt like a proud mother today when my 8th graders showed me that they had discovered a way to recycle their chalk by collecting chalk shavings, adding water, and waiting for it to harden into a large, blob-shaped piece of chalk. It writes pretty roughly and it isn't the best option in the world, but considering the chalk shortage SB seems to be consistently experiencing, this was incredibly resourceful of them! I was so overwhelmed with happiness that I got a lump in my throat and nearly started crying. I'm sure they thought I was a fool, but I just couldn't control myself in that moment.
These kids are beyond amazing and I'm having a hard time imagining my life without their innate brilliance inspiring me every moment of every day. Luckily, I'll have these blogs to look back on and when I need a bit of inspiration, I'll just think of the recycled chalk blobs and I'm sure the lump of pride in my throat will be restored.